Its Christmas time...yay?

Its nice to be isolated, you know?
Tonight, everyone even remotely popular in the younger queer community is going to be going for dinner at GAB and is going to have a fantastically fun time. I wouldn't even have known about it if I hadn't seen two of my friends talking about it on their facebook walls. Last time I checked, I was gay, so its nice to see that I'm so well liked and accepted even within my own group that they wouldn't even bother inviting me or acknowledging me as part of the community. Obviously I'm not going to go, no need to ruin a perfectly good party that they're all going to enjoy.
I hate that everyone just passes me by, am I really that repulsive or invisible that the courtesy of an invitation I'd likely decline anyways can't even be sent? I don't hang with the people at GAB or any others "of my kind" simply because that respect isn't there; why should I go to a party where I'd only know people from a meeting once over the summer if they're not even going to pretend to be friendly towards me, just another way for me to humiliate myself, so I think I'll pass.
Still...it would be nice to go, just so I can say I went and had a good time and enjoyed myself among people who understand me a bit better than my heterosexual friends. Nuts to them though, they wanna be all cliqued up and shun those who aren't part of their in-group, fine. I don't need them (I need them) and I'm better off without them (no I'm not).